Have you ever felt like you just couldn’t figure out where to go next? I remember back in the “old days” when I was driving in an unfamiliar area, and I suddenly realized I was lost. That was rather stressful and created a sense of anxiety – probably because I didn’t want to be wandering around, turning down one way streets, entering on to the wrong expressway, or changing lanes without realizing there was another car zooming right up beside me. I don’t think I was feeling anxious because I thought I was really, truly, actually LOST and that I would never find my way home. Even though I am seriously “directionally challenged,” I do know north, south, east, and west and sometimes I would just tell myself, “If you keep going north and east you will eventually get home.” That works most of the time. Except the day I thought I was on my way to Detroit only to pass a sign that said “Chicago Exit 1 Mile.” Oops! I had only been going the wrong way for about 20 minutes, so it all turned out OK in the end. And really . . . if I did end up in Chicago instead of Detroit, I could always just turn around and go back where I came from. So why all of the anxiety?
I’m really not sure, but lately that’s how I’ve been feeling about life. I think maybe there are just too many really good directions that one could choose, so I tend to choose . . . them all! And then I find myself “lost” in a sea of confusing and competing demands on my time, energy, and brain power. This past three-day weekend we decided to focus our time and energy on one project that we had been wanting to accomplish for the past several months. It is one of those projects that aren’t screaming “LOOK AT ME!” or “FIX THIS RIGHT NOW!” but it was a project that was just out there, annoying and a constant reminder that here was a half-finished project.
We’ve been in the process of updating, painting, and generally fixing up our house. Nothing huge, no major remodeling (well, except for after the flood last autumn), but projects that we just wanted to do. We’ve been at this now, a little bit at a time, for over a year. We’ve made great progress. The next project on our list was to paint the dining room / family room. So the girls started pulling off the old wallpaper (NEVER, EVER will we put wallpaper up! But this was here when we moved in), and they had just about finished three walls. But the last wall that was still covered with wallpaper was COMPLETELY covered with wallpaper. Have you ever removed wallpaper?
It took all of us working on it, all day Saturday, to get it all removed and the walls ready to be painted. Not to mention that it is a HUGE MESS to remove yucky, 30-year-old wallpaper. We got all of that cleaned up and then on Sunday afternoon we started painting. Of course, nothing ever goes quite as smoothly as you hope it will. There were places above the fireplace that needed to be patched, and baseboards needed to be removed, and the window frames needed to be painted white, and the ceiling needed to be painted, and the AC/heat vents needed to be removed and cleaned and painted. It wasn’t just the walls.
Then all of the electrical outlets had to be removed and replaced, and the ceiling light fixture HAD to go! Off we went to Home Depot to buy a new light fixture but it had to be one that we all agreed on. Fortunately, our Dad found one that we all liked, so back home to install the light fixture before we could finish painting. But then there were a few other necessities for the weekend like buying groceries, laundry, and feeding our little family. FINALLY, the walls and ceiling were all painted last night around 9:00 p.m. By then I was completely worthless, the kitchen was still a big mess, and all of the furniture, lamps, pictures, and everything else that had been piled in the middle of the room so we could paint . . . . was STILL all in the middle of the room. Good night!
Today I had to get up and go to work, our Dad had to get up and go to work, and the girls had to get up and go to school. I hope we will be able to dig out from under this mess today. When we do, our dining room / family room will look really nice with a fresh coat of paint! But then . . . . we need to rip out the old carpeting and replace it with hardwood flooring. Another mess but in the end it is worth all of the time and effort. I’m just tired right now, I guess.
So that gets me to losing my GPS. Today I can’t quite figure out where to go from here. I’m going to try this week to sort it out, and if I find my way home, I’ll let you know. In the meantime, I’m going to do my best today to make a list, number it 1 – a million, and get started. Wish me luck! If you have lost your GPS, I can’t help you right now. But at least you know you aren’t alone. Hopefully I’ll be back here if I decide that blogging gets to stay on my To Do list. Hope you have a good week!